Loneliness is the death of Me

I’m not very good company at the moment and conversations are at the bottom of my list today so if I didn’t answer the phone today, SORRY. Just some thoughts to get off my chest.

Why is it that men (or is it just my man) prefer to stay home on a weekend and not do anything???? I can / will not ever understand this as it totally does not make any sense at all. The only time we have together is on the weekend and I like to experience things TOGETHER – he on the other hand thinks that staying home, laying on the couch and watching movies is spending quality time together. For the life of me I don’t understand men! Needless to say that this weekend was a total waste of his “quality time”. Ha. Is it so wrong of me to expect him to spend all his free time with me? I do love the man but sometimes I just don’t like him very much, and the fact that he is as stubborn as I does not help matters at all.

Juan went on a quad rally this morning and came home with my brown (once white) quad, full of smiles and jolly - I do like it when he smiles and since Kobie passed this does not happen very often. He made real good friends since we moved here and now he spends his time riding / fishing and doing “normal” teenage things that I actually approve of instead of being in the mall the whole time (I don’t understand what they do in the mall for 6-8 hours at a time??). As a mom I am very happy that I made the decision to move, but for myself I cannot yet say with conviction that this was the best move, but I’ll keep you updated should this feeling change.